i am

TRY

2008-04-15T07:48:30Z

" try filling my shoes for a day"

-ok-

-i don't seem to be able to fill them, my fe......-

"Exactly, NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP, AND SIT DOWN."

jus how i've been feeling lately.

figured i'd let you all know

chaos_religion @ 2008-01-10T06:19:00

2008-01-10T11:23:17Z

day in day out i walk a lonely road

somewhere between reality and fantasy

a road where there are no crossroads

everyday i still hope for those old crossroads to appear.

chaos_religion @ 2008-01-10T05:33:00

2008-01-10T10:44:47Z

hi old friend

hello there.

how are you, havent spoken in forever

i know, its been too long.

yes, yes it has, too long indeed

ive been busy tempting others.

oh, i guess thats good to hear

why? you miss me tempting you.

no not really, although i guess thats why your here

actually it is, i heard you've been down.

damn, and i thought you were here to wish me luck

nope, i'm here to make sure you havent forgotten.

i'll never forget, as much as i try, i'll never forget

good.

X-MAS Eve

2007-12-25T05:51:10Z

so its christmas eve and im not even closeto drunk yet, hell i havent even started drinking but after putting up this post i believe i shall start drinking. i'm in a rut but its a good one, i already opened all my presents and dont really care, i got some cool stuff but once again i dont really care. i miss being at home, as in i miss being in my own house, the one i pay for every nmonth, it came back to me why i wanted to move out so badly since i was fourteen. nothing really against my mom but shes been going off the deep end for some time now and every time i see her shes sinking even faster, shes still the same ole mom but she snaps easier and i find it hard to keep my temper done around her.

oh well, merry x-mas to all and fuck off.
and happy new year.

heirloom 13, seems to kinda hit close to home

2007-12-12T10:24:40Z

Rise now my son
You were suffering from a horrible dream
So mend your ways before they tear you by the seams
You're not the first and not the last
So take this relic of the beloved past
Take it now, It's yours, pass it on, preserve
This undenied heritage of yours
So take this heirloom
So take this heirloom
So take the heirloom
So take the heirloom
But I don't want it
And I don't need it
So you can keep it
So you can keep it
I don't want it, I don't need it
Take your heirloom to hell
I will not fulfill your prophecy
Because this heirloom, it burns like a scar
The calf denies the branding iron at last
I don't want it
I don't want it
I don't want it
I don't want it

yes i stole lines from clutch.

2007-12-01T09:30:22Z

todays another day, wake up with a smoke

fire it up , fire it up

stumble to the bathroom, god i wanna die

go back to the room, get my shit

fuck why?!

slowly make the trek down stairs

head pounding, throat dry

have another smoke,

fire it up, fire it up

make my way to the kitchen

gotta eat, fuck i wanna die

songs rolling through my head like memories

head to work, wanna die for eight hours

have a few more smokes

fire them up, fire them up

stumble through the front door , try not to make noise

eat half the contents of the fridge

grab the keys, light another smoke

fire it up, fire it up

head to the garage, grab the alcohol

fire it up, fire it up, the flesh be dammed, tattoo morrow future now, tattoo morrow
future now, yesterdays for mice and gods.

stumble back to the house, not careing, not worring, just wanting to die

god how did i get in this rut,

crash

tomorrow: do it all over again.

boredom is the devil's plaything

2007-11-29T07:20:53Z

Your Score: INTP

You scored 53Introversion, 59 iNtuitiveness, 23 Feelingnessand 40 Judgingness!

Nerdy, secretive, you are the INTP. Communication is sometimes necessary to you but only when it involves something impossibly deep or complex. You talk to your friends about eastern philosophy, western religion, weird ass music like..."well, you probably haven't heard of them", etc. You are highly theoretical, dealing mostly in possibilities. Thus, you aren't highly inclined to action. Rather than flying the aeroplane, you build it and let the ISTP fly it. You read everything, because it increases your knowledge base, and therefore the number of things you can think about. You probably can't relate to "S's" very well, because talking about the "defensive lines of the PAC 10" bores the hell out of you. Where do people fit in to your understanding? You analyze them carefully, much like you would analyze a book, and then base your opinions of them on that. Perhaps you should accept people more than you analyze. your life might be easier.

Introvert: You are internally focused

iNtuitive: You are abstract

Thinking: You use your thinking to make decisions

Perceiving: You use your imagination to define your ideas

Link: The strangely accurate personality Test written by Whalesfromheck on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

one of those days......

2007-11-22T18:44:45Z

Every day I wake up we drink a lot of coffee and watch the CNN
Every day I wake up to a bowl of clover honey and let the locusts fly in.
Lobsterbacks attack the town again
Wrap all my things in aluminum
Beams of darkness streak across the sky
Pink rays from the ancient satellite

Every time I look out my window same three dogs looking back at me
Every time I open my windows cranes fly in to terrorize me
The power of the Holy Ghost

Shadow of the New Praetorian
Tipping Cows in fields Elysian
Saturnalia for all you have
The seven habits of the highly infected calf

Swan diving off the tongues of crippled giants
International Business Machine
Choking on bits of fallen bread crumbs
Oh, this burning beard, I have come undone
It's just as I've feared. I have, I have come undone

Bugger dumb the last of academe
Okkam's razor makes the cutting clean
Shaven like a banker, lilac vegetal
Break the glass ceiling and the golden parachute on down

The power of the Holy Ghost comes to town
Shadow of the New Praetorian
Tipping cows in fields Elysian
Saturnalia for all you have
The seven habits of the highly infected calf

whats a subject???

2007-11-12T19:03:00Z

"Extraordinary Girl"

She's an Extraordinary girl
In an ordinary world
And she cant seem to get away

He lacks the courage in his mind
Like a child left behind
Like a pet left in the rain

She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying

She sees the mirror of herself
An image she wants to sell
To anyone willing to buy

He steals the image in her kiss
From her hearts apocalypse
From the one called whatsername

She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
She gets so sick of crying

She's all alone again
Wiping the tears from her eyes
Some days he feels like dying
Some days it's not worth trying
Now that they both are finding
She gets so sick of crying

She's an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl
an Extraordinary girl

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHA

2007-07-26T14:24:52Z

i'll do whatever you ask, anything, just don't make go in the fat ones pouch.

chaos_religion @ 2007-07-15T00:20:00

2007-07-15T05:21:07Z

"do it like an eight year old!!"

a poem for hells sake

2007-07-06T05:47:47Z

1. Rocked in the cradle of the deep
I lay me down in peace to sleep
Secure I rest upon the wave
For thou O gods! Hast power to save
The power to save me from myself and my devilish deeds
O sweet gods take pity on me
For I am lust and I am greed
O sweet gods take mercy on me
For I have no direction and am in need of correction
O gods… have pity for me
As I lay down for my final sleep
Take me into your arms to weep
For when I die you will see
Why I ask you to pity me.

i was with 11 you talk to 14 about that shit.

2007-06-24T04:34:41Z

yea so, i'm guessing a serious post is in need of beingput up. i dont mean a sappy serious post an actual serious post with a lil bit oh poetry.

so cassie and i don't really see eachother very often because of conflicting schedules and its driving me crazy but i think it will be good for us in the end, i really dont think that our relationship can get weaker by this but only stronger, i've weakened it up enouh and it can only get better from here cause i'm trying harder and harder to make things better for us because i care for this relationship more than anything except cassie herself.

2. Golden slumbers kiss your eyes
Smiles awake you when you rise
Sleep pretty girl do not cry
And I will sing you a lullaby
A lullaby for you and only you
My pretty girl who’s seen and heard frightful things occur.
While you dream your guardian shall see you through
And keep you from the blues
A good nights sleep will keep you, you
Don’t fret your guardian will see you through
The nightmarish things that make you brood
Don’t fret little girl your guardian
Shall see you through.

books of quotations

2007-05-25T09:01:11Z

books of quotations are the greatest things in the world when you have writers block.
i finally started writing again and i wrote 4 fucking poems in one day i havent done that in forever. i love my little pocket book of quotations.

magnifeik

chaos_religion @ 2006-05-17T22:22:00

2006-05-18T03:25:10Z

MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i'm back fuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yea only for a lil bit though.
i'm a bit drunk again like usual.

i know you all though this name was forever dead but its noot, i still remember the password. tehe.

i jus figured i'd make up for lost time and thoughts and brain cells. meh like anyone cares.

my head really fucking hurts. its not fucking coool

goodbye for good. loyal followers gone

2005-07-19T08:38:16Z

well now its gonna be the last time i post under chaos_religion because i have been found out by other cult leaders and they want to exterminate me and i really would like to live til tomorrow.

well now i leave you all to weep for the failed experiment known as sadochatoism, and i take chaosreligion with it to the firey pits of the nine hells...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................EEP!!!!!!

chaos_religion @ 2005-07-17T20:30:00

2005-07-18T01:40:35Z

although i have created my own religion i think i will step down from what i created and watch as it crashes and burns, while i stand idley by and keep from being at the head of the accident.

so i now step down from the head of sadochatoism and let....well my followers who are hard core into it lead it while i find a new path that i find is right for me.

also i find that sadochatoism is too close tied to the christian and catholic religions.

i now let coss and dak lead sadochatoism.

good day

chaos_religion @ 2005-07-17T01:02:00

2005-07-17T06:08:02Z

yeah so meijer is now the best fucking store in the world.

not only do they carry pocky........but get this they have koala bears toooooo!!!!!

do any of you remember koala bears? i do they are fucking great!

they are so much better than what i remember.

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

chaos_religion @ 2005-07-15T05:28:00

2005-07-15T10:32:43Z

yeah so the whole sleeping thing just isnt working, i just havent been able to sleep lately and tonight it got even worse because i still havent felt tired.

on other news i have a creepy bunny bank now. i spray painted it black and i painted the eyes white and i'm gonna put red pupils on it. my bunny will be the creepiest bunny known to man, even more creepy than bunncula. anyone remeber him? he had his own little cartoon movie, it was cool because the bunny was a vampire.

chaos_religion @ 2005-07-15T00:02:00

2005-07-15T05:07:37Z

i know i have created my own religion, but for a while now i've been wondering if i should just follow the ways of eris and become a discordian.

i dunno its almost the same thing but i've gots nothin.

chaos_religion @ 2005-07-14T01:10:00

2005-07-14T06:23:19Z

well i'm drinking again. i need to get sleep and its the only way i can really fall asleep.

if i kiss you in the middle of you sentence i'm just saying "your prettier when you shut up"

j/k babe, i love you.

i party with terrorists!

i gots nothin else, see ya all later

chaos_religion @ 2005-07-12T02:10:00

2005-07-12T07:11:36Z

Fill this out about me!!! **BUT FIRST** REPOST a blank copy to all of your friends (including me) so they can fill it out about you! Got it?
BE HONEST! **YES or NO** Am i:-

Ugly? :

Kind? :

Hot? :

Loud? :

Shy? :

Weird? :

Selfish? :

Ghetto? :

Crazy?:

Nice? :

Mean?:

Immature? :

Rude?:

Cool? :

Brat? :

Stupid? :

Caring? :

Mature? :

A friend? :

More than a friend? :

Talkative? :

Boring? :

Creative? :

Smart? :

A flirt? :

A psycho? :

Athletic? :

Confusing? :

Sweet? :

Have mood swings?:

Annoying? :

Funny? :

Hyper? :

Laid back? :

Perfect? :

*~*~*~*IF YOU COULD*~*~*~*

Give me a new name, what would it be ?:

Hook me up with someone, who would it be ?:

Do one thing with me, it would be ?:l

Drop me one piece of advice, it would be ?:

*~*~*~*WOULD YOU *~*~*~* >>>>>>

Kiss me ?:

Ever go out with me ?:

If you already have, would you do it again ?:

Marry me if you could ?:

Ever talk bad about me if we were to break up ?:

**JUST SOME QUESTIONS**

What is my phone number?:

Which song reminds you of me?:

Do you think I'll get married?:

If you do..who do you think I'll marry?:

When is my birthday?:

Who is/are my best friend/s?:

Where did we meet?:

Have you ever had a dream about me?:

If you could change one thing about me what would it be?:

What do you love about me?:

Describe me in 3-5 words....

chaos_religion @ 2005-07-11T22:00:00

2005-07-12T03:00:46Z

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	breath taking
Your hugs are...	to die for
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	the only thing I desire
Your smell is...	exotic
Your smile is...	hypnotising
Your love is...	one of a kind

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chaos_religion @ 2005-07-10T20:17:00

2005-07-11T01:26:25Z

i've been wondering what is a whore. what makes a person a whore.
well the text book definition is " a person who sells his/her body for money or other material things"

well if thats the definition of what a whore is then doesnt that mean that everyone who has a job is by definition a whore?

i've gots nothin else to say. work is work and well nothin else.

kate and i are doing great. even though my mom keeps giving me shit about us not being "pg" around athoer people

chaos_religion @ 2005-07-05T00:25:00

2005-07-05T05:25:46Z

i hate that fucking cat. i'm so close to fucking killing her.