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Tuesday, April 15th, 2008
2:43 am	TRY " try filling my shoes for a day" -ok- -i don't seem to be able to fill them, my fe......- "Exactly, NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP, AND SIT DOWN." jus how i've been feeling lately. figured i'd let you all know Current Mood: cranky Current Music: tick, tock of the clock (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 10th, 2008
6:19 am	day in day out i walk a lonely road somewhere between reality and fantasy a road where there are no crossroads everyday i still hope for those old crossroads to appear. Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: humming of the fridge (Comment on this)
5:33 am	hi old friend hello there. how are you, havent spoken in forever i know, its been too long. yes, yes it has, too long indeed ive been busy tempting others. oh, i guess thats good to hear why? you miss me tempting you. no not really, although i guess thats why your here actually it is, i heard you've been down. damn, and i thought you were here to wish me luck nope, i'm here to make sure you havent forgotten. i'll never forget, as much as i try, i'll never forget good. Current Mood: wondering jus wondering Current Music: lodger: steal and lie (Comment on this)
Monday, December 24th, 2007
11:41 pm	X-MAS Eve so its christmas eve and im not even closeto drunk yet, hell i havent even started drinking but after putting up this post i believe i shall start drinking. i'm in a rut but its a good one, i already opened all my presents and dont really care, i got some cool stuff but once again i dont really care. i miss being at home, as in i miss being in my own house, the one i pay for every nmonth, it came back to me why i wanted to move out so badly since i was fourteen. nothing really against my mom but shes been going off the deep end for some time now and every time i see her shes sinking even faster, shes still the same ole mom but she snaps easier and i find it hard to keep my temper done around her. oh well, merry x-mas to all and fuck off. and happy new year. Current Mood: want to be drunk Current Music: clutch (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 12th, 2007
4:21 am	heirloom 13, seems to kinda hit close to home Rise now my son You were suffering from a horrible dream So mend your ways before they tear you by the seams You're not the first and not the last So take this relic of the beloved past Take it now, It's yours, pass it on, preserve This undenied heritage of yours So take this heirloom So take this heirloom So take the heirloom So take the heirloom But I don't want it And I don't need it So you can keep it So you can keep it I don't want it, I don't need it Take your heirloom to hell I will not fulfill your prophecy Because this heirloom, it burns like a scar The calf denies the branding iron at last I don't want it I don't want it I don't want it I don't want it (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 1st, 2007
3:13 am	yes i stole lines from clutch. todays another day, wake up with a smoke fire it up , fire it up stumble to the bathroom, god i wanna die go back to the room, get my shit fuck why?! slowly make the trek down stairs head pounding, throat dry have another smoke, fire it up, fire it up make my way to the kitchen gotta eat, fuck i wanna die songs rolling through my head like memories head to work, wanna die for eight hours have a few more smokes fire them up, fire them up stumble through the front door , try not to make noise eat half the contents of the fridge grab the keys, light another smoke fire it up, fire it up head to the garage, grab the alcohol fire it up, fire it up, the flesh be dammed, tattoo morrow future now, tattoo morrow future now, yesterdays for mice and gods. stumble back to the house, not careing, not worring, just wanting to die god how did i get in this rut, crash tomorrow: do it all over again. Current Mood: drunk Current Music: clutch: hoodoo operator (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 29th, 2007
1:20 am	boredom is the devil's plaything Your Score: INTP You scored 53Introversion, 59 iNtuitiveness, 23 Feelingnessand 40 Judgingness! Nerdy, secretive, you are the INTP. Communication is sometimes necessary to you but only when it involves something impossibly deep or complex. You talk to your friends about eastern philosophy, western religion, weird ass music like..."well, you probably haven't heard of them", etc. You are highly theoretical, dealing mostly in possibilities. Thus, you aren't highly inclined to action. Rather than flying the aeroplane, you build it and let the ISTP fly it. You read everything, because it increases your knowledge base, and therefore the number of things you can think about. You probably can't relate to "S's" very well, because talking about the "defensive lines of the PAC 10" bores the hell out of you. Where do people fit in to your understanding? You analyze them carefully, much like you would analyze a book, and then base your opinions of them on that. Perhaps you should accept people more than you analyze. your life might be easier. Introvert: You are internally focused iNtuitive: You are abstract Thinking: You use your thinking to make decisions Perceiving: You use your imagination to define your ideas Link: The strangely accurate personality Test written by Whalesfromheck on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 22nd, 2007
12:42 pm	one of those days...... Every day I wake up we drink a lot of coffee and watch the CNN Every day I wake up to a bowl of clover honey and let the locusts fly in. Lobsterbacks attack the town again Wrap all my things in aluminum Beams of darkness streak across the sky Pink rays from the ancient satellite Every time I look out my window same three dogs looking back at me Every time I open my windows cranes fly in to terrorize me The power of the Holy Ghost Shadow of the New Praetorian Tipping Cows in fields Elysian Saturnalia for all you have The seven habits of the highly infected calf Swan diving off the tongues of crippled giants International Business Machine Choking on bits of fallen bread crumbs Oh, this burning beard, I have come undone It's just as I've feared. I have, I have come undone Bugger dumb the last of academe Okkam's razor makes the cutting clean Shaven like a banker, lilac vegetal Break the glass ceiling and the golden parachute on down The power of the Holy Ghost comes to town Shadow of the New Praetorian Tipping cows in fields Elysian Saturnalia for all you have The seven habits of the highly infected calf (Comment on this)
Monday, November 12th, 2007
1:02 pm	whats a subject??? "Extraordinary Girl" She's an Extraordinary girl In an ordinary world And she cant seem to get away He lacks the courage in his mind Like a child left behind Like a pet left in the rain She's all alone again Wiping the tears from her eyes Some days he feels like dying She gets so sick of crying She sees the mirror of herself An image she wants to sell To anyone willing to buy He steals the image in her kiss From her hearts apocalypse From the one called whatsername She's all alone again Wiping the tears from her eyes Some days he feels like dying She gets so sick of crying She's all alone again Wiping the tears from her eyes Some days he feels like dying Some days it's not worth trying Now that they both are finding She gets so sick of crying She's an Extraordinary girl an Extraordinary girl an Extraordinary girl an Extraordinary girl (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 26th, 2007
9:22 am	AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHA i'll do whatever you ask, anything, just don't make go in the fat ones pouch. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 15th, 2007
12:20 am	"do it like an eight year old!!" (Comment on this)
Friday, July 6th, 2007
12:46 am	a poem for hells sake 1. Rocked in the cradle of the deep I lay me down in peace to sleep Secure I rest upon the wave For thou O gods! Hast power to save The power to save me from myself and my devilish deeds O sweet gods take pity on me For I am lust and I am greed O sweet gods take mercy on me For I have no direction and am in need of correction O gods… have pity for me As I lay down for my final sleep Take me into your arms to weep For when I die you will see Why I ask you to pity me. (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 23rd, 2007
10:30 pm	i was with 11 you talk to 14 about that shit. yea so, i'm guessing a serious post is in need of beingput up. i dont mean a sappy serious post an actual serious post with a lil bit oh poetry. so cassie and i don't really see eachother very often because of conflicting schedules and its driving me crazy but i think it will be good for us in the end, i really dont think that our relationship can get weaker by this but only stronger, i've weakened it up enouh and it can only get better from here cause i'm trying harder and harder to make things better for us because i care for this relationship more than anything except cassie herself. 2. Golden slumbers kiss your eyes Smiles awake you when you rise Sleep pretty girl do not cry And I will sing you a lullaby A lullaby for you and only you My pretty girl who’s seen and heard frightful things occur. While you dream your guardian shall see you through And keep you from the blues A good nights sleep will keep you, you Don’t fret your guardian will see you through The nightmarish things that make you brood Don’t fret little girl your guardian Shall see you through. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 25th, 2007
3:59 am	books of quotations books of quotations are the greatest things in the world when you have writers block. i finally started writing again and i wrote 4 fucking poems in one day i havent done that in forever. i love my little pocket book of quotations. magnifeik (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
10:22 pm	MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i'm back fuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yea only for a lil bit though. i'm a bit drunk again like usual. i know you all though this name was forever dead but its noot, i still remember the password. tehe. i jus figured i'd make up for lost time and thoughts and brain cells. meh like anyone cares. my head really fucking hurts. its not fucking coool (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 19th, 2005
3:32 am	goodbye for good. loyal followers gone well now its gonna be the last time i post under chaos_religion because i have been found out by other cult leaders and they want to exterminate me and i really would like to live til tomorrow. well now i leave you all to weep for the failed experiment known as sadochatoism, and i take chaosreligion with it to the firey pits of the nine hells...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................EEP!!!!!! Current Mood: cold Current Music: mitch heberg (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 17th, 2005
8:30 pm	although i have created my own religion i think i will step down from what i created and watch as it crashes and burns, while i stand idley by and keep from being at the head of the accident. so i now step down from the head of sadochatoism and let....well my followers who are hard core into it lead it while i find a new path that i find is right for me. also i find that sadochatoism is too close tied to the christian and catholic religions. i now let coss and dak lead sadochatoism. good day Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: none (4 Comments |Comment on this)
1:02 am	yeah so meijer is now the best fucking store in the world.   not only do they carry pocky........but get this they have koala bears toooooo!!!!!   do any of you remember koala bears? i do they are fucking great!   they are so much better than what i remember.       SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: mudvayn "forget to remeber" (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 15th, 2005
5:28 am	yeah so the whole sleeping thing just isnt working, i just havent been able to sleep lately and tonight it got even worse because i still havent felt tired. on other news i have a creepy bunny bank now. i spray painted it black and i painted the eyes white and i'm gonna put red pupils on it. my bunny will be the creepiest bunny known to man, even more creepy than bunncula. anyone remeber him? he had his own little cartoon movie, it was cool because the bunny was a vampire. Current Mood: awake Current Music: lords of acid "ABC'S of kinky sex (Comment on this)
12:02 am	i know i have created my own religion, but for a while now i've been wondering if i should just follow the ways of eris and become a discordian. i dunno its almost the same thing but i've gots nothin. Current Mood: confused Current Music: invader zim (2 Comments |Comment on this)